[Holding hands was okay when he and Hilda were just friends, Ford reasons, so it should be okay here, too, right?
He takes Bill's hand.
Ohhh no. Oh no, Ford's having a lot of feelings, a lot of feelings that need to be totally fine. Why are interpersonal relationships so complicated?? Ford will take rocket science every time over all of this.]
I--I'd like that.
[Is this how to stay involved in Bill's life without being in a relationship or involved in an ill-advised project?? Is this the answer?]
Ha ha. Well, I -- I think that's an oversimplification.
[They both worked very hard, and made a lot of compromises, and had to change in big ways. Ford was put through a lot because of Bill going after what Bill still wanted!]
[It'd be fun to let himself get caught up in that easy confidence. Three years is a significant length of time, but frankly, compared to the 30+ they've known one another, it's been a whirlwind romance.]
Those three years involved some pretty big changes.
But when I found out about what was really going on -- with the nature of our reality, with the Director -- I did change, Bill. The world got a lot smaller -- and a lot bigger. And I wanted to change my place in it. I was willing to do a lot of things to make sure of that.
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Date: 2020-08-17 06:37 am (UTC)[Bill touches his hand. Hold hands? Is this friends? Is this just friends.]
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Date: 2020-08-18 02:08 am (UTC)He takes Bill's hand.
Ohhh no. Oh no, Ford's having a lot of feelings, a lot of feelings that need to be totally fine. Why are interpersonal relationships so complicated?? Ford will take rocket science every time over all of this.]
I--I'd like that.
[Is this how to stay involved in Bill's life without being in a relationship or involved in an ill-advised project?? Is this the answer?]
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Date: 2020-08-18 03:31 am (UTC)[Bill looks down at their hands.]
NOT THAT WHAT HAPPENED DIDN'T HAPPEN. STILL DID, STILL MY FAULT! THINGS CAN BE REAL AND NOT REAL AT THE SAME TIME.
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Date: 2020-08-18 11:36 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-08-19 12:06 am (UTC)[Bill is only angry about it in the very very core of himself - he rarely ventures in there, so the rest of him can take it all pretty lightly.]
YOU'VE SAID THAT BEFORE. DO YOU REALLY THINK SO?
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Date: 2020-08-19 02:27 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-08-19 02:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-08-19 04:05 am (UTC)[They both worked very hard, and made a lot of compromises, and had to change in big ways. Ford was put through a lot because of Bill going after what Bill still wanted!]
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Date: 2020-08-19 04:14 am (UTC)[Bill squeezes his hand.]
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Date: 2020-08-19 07:52 pm (UTC)Those three years involved some pretty big changes.
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