[Bill would prefer to see Ford's face if he's gonna continue, so he floats back again.]
I WAS, JUST. WHERE WAS I. SCARED I WAS GONNA DIE, YEAH. WHEN PEOPLE ARE AFRAID, THEY LEARN HOW TO LIE.
[Another humorless bend of the eye.]
YOU ONLY EVER LIED TO ME SUCCESSFULLY WHEN I HAD THE KIDS, RIGHT?
[When it wasn't really a game any more.]
I WAS A LITTLE TOO, YOU KNOW, INVOLVED WITH MYSELF TO UNDERSTAND THAT EVERYBODY WAS LYING, EVERYBODY IN THE SECOND DIMENSION I EVER MET! EVERYBODY WAS PRETENDING TO BUY WHAT THEY WERE FED, TO KEEP THEMSELVES SAFE, AND KEEP THE PEOPLE WHO MADE THEM HAPPY SAFE. SOME PEOPLE REALLY DID BUY INTO ALL THAT CRAP ABOUT THE ANGLES, BUT MORE PEOPLE THAT I EVER GAVE THE WORLD CREDIT FOR WERE JUST KEEPING THEIR HEADS DOWN TO STAY ALIVE. THERE WAS APPARENTLY A WHOLE REBELLION, AND I MISSED IT! BECAUSE, EH, I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE. I DID. I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO HATED LIVING HERE, AND HATED WHAT THE LAW WAS. WHATEVER LYING THEY WERE ALL DOING, IT FOOLED ME.
[The only one in the whole world smart enough to be scared? Yeah, it sounds pretty dumb, now. Bill rubs at his eye.]
I GOT OUT OF DODGE BEFORE MY DEADLINE, OBVIOUSLY! I COULD PASS FOR AN EQUILATERAL UNLESS I WAS ACTUALLY MEASURED BY A DOCTOR, SO I STARTED PRETENDING TO BE ONE. THAT'S ONE CASTE ABOVE MY ACTUAL FAMILY'S, SO IT CAME WITH MORE PERKS! I CHANGED MY NAME. I CAUGHT UP WITH THE EDUCATION AN EQUILATERAL WAS EXPECTED TO HAVE! I FIGURED OUT HOW FAST I COULD LEARN SOMETHING WHEN I WANTED TO! PRETTY FAST, FORDSY.
[Not all of this is the magic, and Bill is arrogant to want that fact out in the open, still. He looks smug, and then - ah, right. Yeah.]
HAVING THE NUMBERS TO PROVE I WAS THE SHARPEST PERSON I KNEW JUST MADE ME THINK MORE AND MORE THAT NOBODY WAS GOING TO SOLVE MY PROBLEMS BETTER THAN ME. I TOOK A LOT OF GAMBLES ON THE FACT THAT I COULD JUST OUT-THINK ANY PROBLEM. OR THAT I COULD BE RUTHLESS ENOUGH TO TAKE A ROUTE NO ONE WOULD EXPECT. I STILL DO! I STILL DO. IT'S A MISTAKE, IT GOT ME KILLED.
[Back on that again. He's not gonna get over that. Resolving to do anything necessary to avoid very real mortality at a young age kinda fucked him up.]
ANYWAY, THE MATH! THEY DIDN'T LET EQUILATERALS GO TO UNIVERSITY EITHER, THAT WAS FOR SQUARES OR ABOVE. I DID A LOT OF THINGS THAT WEREN'T TECHNICALLY ILLEGAL, BECAUSE ILLEGAL THINGS WOULD SEND ME SOMEWHERE I DEFINITELY DIDN'T WANT TO BE, BUT WERE JUST SOCIALLY UNTHINKABLE!
[It was a form of vengeance. Bill's a petty bitch. He rubs his little hands.]
BECAUSE I WAS A DEAD GUY WALKING EITHER WAY, RIGHT? I WAS PUSHY. I WASN'T POLITE! I DIDN'T ACT LIKE A GENTLEMAN. THESE THINGS ARE A BIG DEAL, YOU GOTTA UNDERSTAND! A LOT OF PEOPLE IN THE SECOND DIMENSION WOULD RATHER STAND STILL ON FIRE THAN TO LOOK A HIGHER-CLASS IN THE EYE AND TELL THEM TO GET A HOSE. I DIDN'T MAKE A LOT OF FRIENDS, I GOT A REPUTATION AS A WEIRD TROUBLEMAKER, BUT NOT ONE THAT ANYONE COULD DO ANYTHING ABOUT!
[just like here on the barge, wow! why have bad things happen to you when you can be the bad thing that happens to EVERYBODY?]
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Date: 2019-12-19 07:12 pm (UTC)I WAS, JUST. WHERE WAS I. SCARED I WAS GONNA DIE, YEAH. WHEN PEOPLE ARE AFRAID, THEY LEARN HOW TO LIE.
[Another humorless bend of the eye.]
YOU ONLY EVER LIED TO ME SUCCESSFULLY WHEN I HAD THE KIDS, RIGHT?
[When it wasn't really a game any more.]
I WAS A LITTLE TOO, YOU KNOW, INVOLVED WITH MYSELF TO UNDERSTAND THAT EVERYBODY WAS LYING, EVERYBODY IN THE SECOND DIMENSION I EVER MET! EVERYBODY WAS PRETENDING TO BUY WHAT THEY WERE FED, TO KEEP THEMSELVES SAFE, AND KEEP THE PEOPLE WHO MADE THEM HAPPY SAFE. SOME PEOPLE REALLY DID BUY INTO ALL THAT CRAP ABOUT THE ANGLES, BUT MORE PEOPLE THAT I EVER GAVE THE WORLD CREDIT FOR WERE JUST KEEPING THEIR HEADS DOWN TO STAY ALIVE. THERE WAS APPARENTLY A WHOLE REBELLION, AND I MISSED IT! BECAUSE, EH, I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE. I DID. I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO HATED LIVING HERE, AND HATED WHAT THE LAW WAS. WHATEVER LYING THEY WERE ALL DOING, IT FOOLED ME.
[The only one in the whole world smart enough to be scared? Yeah, it sounds pretty dumb, now. Bill rubs at his eye.]
I GOT OUT OF DODGE BEFORE MY DEADLINE, OBVIOUSLY! I COULD PASS FOR AN EQUILATERAL UNLESS I WAS ACTUALLY MEASURED BY A DOCTOR, SO I STARTED PRETENDING TO BE ONE. THAT'S ONE CASTE ABOVE MY ACTUAL FAMILY'S, SO IT CAME WITH MORE PERKS! I CHANGED MY NAME. I CAUGHT UP WITH THE EDUCATION AN EQUILATERAL WAS EXPECTED TO HAVE! I FIGURED OUT HOW FAST I COULD LEARN SOMETHING WHEN I WANTED TO! PRETTY FAST, FORDSY.
[Not all of this is the magic, and Bill is arrogant to want that fact out in the open, still. He looks smug, and then - ah, right. Yeah.]
HAVING THE NUMBERS TO PROVE I WAS THE SHARPEST PERSON I KNEW JUST MADE ME THINK MORE AND MORE THAT NOBODY WAS GOING TO SOLVE MY PROBLEMS BETTER THAN ME. I TOOK A LOT OF GAMBLES ON THE FACT THAT I COULD JUST OUT-THINK ANY PROBLEM. OR THAT I COULD BE RUTHLESS ENOUGH TO TAKE A ROUTE NO ONE WOULD EXPECT. I STILL DO! I STILL DO. IT'S A MISTAKE, IT GOT ME KILLED.
[Back on that again. He's not gonna get over that. Resolving to do anything necessary to avoid very real mortality at a young age kinda fucked him up.]
ANYWAY, THE MATH! THEY DIDN'T LET EQUILATERALS GO TO UNIVERSITY EITHER, THAT WAS FOR SQUARES OR ABOVE. I DID A LOT OF THINGS THAT WEREN'T TECHNICALLY ILLEGAL, BECAUSE ILLEGAL THINGS WOULD SEND ME SOMEWHERE I DEFINITELY DIDN'T WANT TO BE, BUT WERE JUST SOCIALLY UNTHINKABLE!
[It was a form of vengeance. Bill's a petty bitch. He rubs his little hands.]
BECAUSE I WAS A DEAD GUY WALKING EITHER WAY, RIGHT? I WAS PUSHY. I WASN'T POLITE! I DIDN'T ACT LIKE A GENTLEMAN. THESE THINGS ARE A BIG DEAL, YOU GOTTA UNDERSTAND! A LOT OF PEOPLE IN THE SECOND DIMENSION WOULD RATHER STAND STILL ON FIRE THAN TO LOOK A HIGHER-CLASS IN THE EYE AND TELL THEM TO GET A HOSE. I DIDN'T MAKE A LOT OF FRIENDS, I GOT A REPUTATION AS A WEIRD TROUBLEMAKER, BUT NOT ONE THAT ANYONE COULD DO ANYTHING ABOUT!
[just like here on the barge, wow! why have bad things happen to you when you can be the bad thing that happens to EVERYBODY?]