[He lets out a laugh, both at the reminder of what he'd said and the kiss to his hand. You goofball. Brightly:]
I think both our sanities are fairly questionable, yes.
[They're cartoons. Creations of someone else, brought to life. But Bill understands that, understands that tightrope they walk between reality as they experience it and the things they've seen, and to fall off of it is to fall into paralyzing existential despair. Maybe the effects of that look like insanity from the outside. But they understand each other.
Even if they are completely insane by the standards of this dimension -- they make each other happy. What's wrong with that, huh?
More seriously:]
I've never been a forgiving person. I moved past what you did to me for thirty years because I had to, or else I wouldn't get anywhere. I believed you wouldn't do it again if you could help it, and that had to be enough.
This is different. This is -- more than just enough. It's--
[It's not a situation he's making himself accept the bad parts of because the alternative is worse.
Sure, it wasn't easy, thinking he might have meant nothing to Bill all this time. But the break gave him the perspective he needed to realize the things he'd been doing wrong this whole time.
hey remember how he was manipulating you back and the whole thing was also a play for control from him? yeah.
He grips Bill's hands in his own, and he feels a giddy surge of happiness as he says:]
It's a lot easier to forgive some guy than an inexorable cosmic force, you know.
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Date: 2019-12-05 04:09 pm (UTC)I think both our sanities are fairly questionable, yes.
[They're cartoons. Creations of someone else, brought to life. But Bill understands that, understands that tightrope they walk between reality as they experience it and the things they've seen, and to fall off of it is to fall into paralyzing existential despair. Maybe the effects of that look like insanity from the outside. But they understand each other.
Even if they are completely insane by the standards of this dimension -- they make each other happy. What's wrong with that, huh?
More seriously:]
I've never been a forgiving person. I moved past what you did to me for thirty years because I had to, or else I wouldn't get anywhere. I believed you wouldn't do it again if you could help it, and that had to be enough.
This is different. This is -- more than just enough. It's--
[It's not a situation he's making himself accept the bad parts of because the alternative is worse.
Sure, it wasn't easy, thinking he might have meant nothing to Bill all this time. But the break gave him the perspective he needed to realize the things he'd been doing wrong this whole time.
hey remember how he was manipulating you back and the whole thing was also a play for control from him? yeah.
He grips Bill's hands in his own, and he feels a giddy surge of happiness as he says:]
It's a lot easier to forgive some guy than an inexorable cosmic force, you know.