[Ford's mouth opens as Bill talks -- not to say anything, but in surprise. Apologies from Bill have always been...well, they don't come easily, and they require a lot of regret to even come out. And that bit about how he might even love--
--no, that's too much, too big for Ford to worry about right now. Being liked and important is enough. It always has been. He kinda wants to know who exactly Bill has been talking to about this, but that's not important now. What's important is what he's going to do about the triangle on his floor, who has taken his big bitter rotten heart into his hands and held it out.
Ford doesn't have to do this. There's no universe riding on it, no billions of deaths he's got to prevent by staying close, by being clever. He....he can't use Bill to feel like he's doing something that matters. It'll just be them. Two people, who are good at a lot of things but bad at this, trying to figure it out. Does Ford want that?]
....I missed you a lot, you know.
Even when we were both using each other, when we thought we'd get what we wanted if we were just clever enough -- it made me happier having you around than anyone else on this ship did.
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Date: 2019-12-05 03:50 am (UTC)--no, that's too much, too big for Ford to worry about right now. Being liked and important is enough. It always has been. He kinda wants to know who exactly Bill has been talking to about this, but that's not important now. What's important is what he's going to do about the triangle on his floor, who has taken his big bitter rotten heart into his hands and held it out.
Ford doesn't have to do this. There's no universe riding on it, no billions of deaths he's got to prevent by staying close, by being clever. He....he can't use Bill to feel like he's doing something that matters. It'll just be them. Two people, who are good at a lot of things but bad at this, trying to figure it out. Does Ford want that?]
....I missed you a lot, you know.
Even when we were both using each other, when we thought we'd get what we wanted if we were just clever enough -- it made me happier having you around than anyone else on this ship did.