I do. That's why I want to think very carefully about what I ask for. But
in the meantime ... I'm not particularly concerned with it as much as I am
with ... doing what I came here to do. Which is ... well.
[She looks up with a soft, but solid smile.]
I was raised to be a killer. A weapon. A tool. I was educated only in what
I needed to know to get the job done, and fed only what was necessary to
keep me functioning at top performance. [A tiny realization, and a
soft laugh:] Maybe that's why I'm so eager to keep our food
resources varied and sustainable. But ... my point is, I was a
killer -- and not much else -- for the first thirteen years of my life. I'm
twenty-one now, so I'm ... still learning, and unlearning. And I think it's
important that you know that I've made peace with the things that I've
done. I'm not here as a penance. I'm not trying to do good in order to make
up for the blood on my hands. I'm here because I believe it's the right
thing to do, to help people when they need it, in the ways that I
can help.
I'm still used to that being ... mostly violent. So I will probably make
some mistakes. But, um ... if there's anything that you need, and I'm not
picking up on it, you can just ask.
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Date: 2019-02-07 07:24 pm (UTC)I do. That's why I want to think very carefully about what I ask for. But in the meantime ... I'm not particularly concerned with it as much as I am with ... doing what I came here to do. Which is ... well.
[She looks up with a soft, but solid smile.]
I was raised to be a killer. A weapon. A tool. I was educated only in what I needed to know to get the job done, and fed only what was necessary to keep me functioning at top performance. [A tiny realization, and a soft laugh:] Maybe that's why I'm so eager to keep our food resources varied and sustainable. But ... my point is, I was a killer -- and not much else -- for the first thirteen years of my life. I'm twenty-one now, so I'm ... still learning, and unlearning. And I think it's important that you know that I've made peace with the things that I've done. I'm not here as a penance. I'm not trying to do good in order to make up for the blood on my hands. I'm here because I believe it's the right thing to do, to help people when they need it, in the ways that I can help.
I'm still used to that being ... mostly violent. So I will probably make some mistakes. But, um ... if there's anything that you need, and I'm not picking up on it, you can just ask.