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Date: 2018-04-09 10:44 am (UTC)Are you okay? That noise just now--sounds like something big just broke.
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Date: 2018-04-09 01:20 pm (UTC)...really, it's Bill himself that gives him the most pause. If he had told this to Ford jovially, with a wink and a flourish and some comment about good behavior and graduation, Ford wouldn't trust it a 2D dimension's width. He has been playing against Bill long enough to know what Bill's like when he's making a move.
This feels off. Wrong. Diminished.
I didn't want it to be anyone but you.]
...what are you saying? Do you mean -- you don't want revenge on me anymore?
[If--if--this is true, then Bill must be moving on to other plans. He's still dangerous. He's still up to something. This doesn't mean Ford or anyone else on this barge is safe.
It just means Bill is ending the game with Ford. He doesn't want to play what he saw as their interdimensional chess match. Something about their last conversation must have spoiled the game.
Oh no. Bill isn't having fun anymore. Cry him a river.]
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Date: 2018-04-09 03:06 pm (UTC)[It doesn't sound like he's lying.]
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Date: 2018-04-09 03:39 pm (UTC)[Bill raises his gaze and it looks acidic, but in an impersonal way.]
WE WERE BOTH SEEING SOMETHING THAT WASN'T THERE. YOU'RE NOT SPECIAL. YOU DIDN'T EVEN END UP BEING IMPORTANT!
I'VE WASTED ENOUGH TIME ALREADY. YOU WANT OUT, CONGRATULATIONS, YOU'RE OUT.
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Date: 2018-04-09 05:08 pm (UTC)But for some reason -- for half a lifetime of reasons -- it stings to hear Bill say it.
What on earth. No. No, this is what he wants: the days of Bill plaguing him, hanging over his head, turning the people on the ship against him before they even meet, they're over. Ford knows exactly what it is he wants, and that's for Bill to either not exist or be removed completely from the lives of the people Ford cares about.
It's a god damned shame this isn't the end of it. He can't say it's really over. If only Steve weren't a factor, then Ford could just let go, could worry about how to complete a universal signature scanner and whether Iris likes him or not and if it matters. But the Barge isn't safe. The multiverse isn't safe. This isn't personal. It isn't a game between them. It's better that way.]
...it won't make any difference. This plate isn't going anywhere. I'm not taking any chances -- you're never possessing me again.
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Date: 2018-04-09 05:23 pm (UTC)[He points to the ring, insistently. It hasn't called him out yet. He has a couple ideas regarding where else Ford can stick his plate, but it's not enough to trip this as a lie.]
THE WHOLE THING WAS A RED HERRING TO KEEP ME AWAY FROM FEZ. IT MIGHT LITERALLY BE THE REASON YOU WERE BORN! YOU REALLY HAVEN'T PICKED THAT UP YET?
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Date: 2018-04-09 07:58 pm (UTC)...the reason I was born?
Bill, are you telling me that you think the only reason I exist is to be a distraction?!
[That is rude, pal.]
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Date: 2018-04-09 08:10 pm (UTC)YOU KNOW, KIND OF A BIG COSMIC PROPHECY HERE. THE FACE OF A MAN DESTINED TO DEFEAT ME, ALL THAT KIND OF THING?
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Date: 2018-04-09 09:09 pm (UTC)[Oh man. This idea ticks him off. He's okay not being important, he's okay not being a hero, but existing in order to ensure Bill would misread the prophecy? Being a part of a cosmic puzzle to be--what? It's not coming into being to be tricked that ticks him off, or to spend thirty years chasing Bill through countless realities.
It's reducing his entire life to a footnote on Bill Cipher's page.
(And any cosmic puppeteer, any god, who would put him on Earth knowing he would go through the winter of 1982...Ford isn't sure he wants to meet them. He's not sure he wouldn't sock them in the jaw.)
Ford isn't sure how to articulate how he feels, how to say I'm not for you, or my life means something apart from you. But mmm boy he is mad. He jabs a finger at the tablet.]
You are not the reason I exist. It doesn't work like that.
...it can't.
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Date: 2018-04-09 09:31 pm (UTC)YEAH, 'CAUSE IF THERE'S ONE THING I CAN RELY ON YOU FOR, IT'S TO KNOW HOW IT CAN AND CAN'T WORK.
[Feel free to assume he's still talking to you, Ford. Half of him is!]
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Date: 2018-04-09 10:25 pm (UTC)[so many layers of irony here.]
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Date: 2018-04-09 10:33 pm (UTC)DO YOU HAVE ANY CONCEPT OF HOW LONG A TRILLION YEARS IS? THE BIG BANG THAT MADE THE PHYSICAL UNIVERSE ONLY HAPPENED BECAUSE I DECIDED NOT TO CLOSE MY HAND AROUND THE INFINITELY SMALL POINT THIS TIME.
YOU NEVER STOOD AT CHANCE AT KEEPING UP. AND I'M TIRED OF HANGING BACK FOR YOU!
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Date: 2018-04-10 03:11 am (UTC)Ford's expression as he listens is a little hurt and deeply unimpressed, a combination that's usually incompatible, but not for Ford Pines. Angrily:]
And I'm tired of chasing you! We may have both ended up on this boat, Bill, but our circumstances couldn't be more different. At least when I get out of here, I've got someone to go back to. You're still just as alone as you were when you didn't bother to stop the creation of the universe.
[To an uncaring being trillions of years old, it is not the punchiest comeback. Bill will probably laugh it off as the evolutionary weakness of a social animal. Whatever. Ford's mostly saying it for himself, anyway: it helps to remind himself of what he's here for, what's waiting for him, what he has that Bill doesn't.
...but yeah he totally just weaponized his character development and the things he loves most in the world in an argument. Ha ha, Bill, he's happy.]
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Date: 2018-04-10 06:06 am (UTC)YOU'VE GOT NOTHING. NOT AS SMART AS YOUR RESEARCH PARTNER, NOT AS IMPORTANT AS YOUR BROTHER - YOU'RE JUST LIKE EVERY OTHER RUN-OF-THE-MILL HUMAN SATISFIED TO LEAD A LIFE OF SNIVELING MEDIOCRITY!
[Bill holds up the ring. It can't measure absolute truth, but it stays dark: Bill believes everything he's saying.]
WHY WOULD I WANT TO BE LIKE YOU, HUH? WHY WOULD I EVEN WANT TO GET IN YOUR HEAD ANY MORE, WHAT'S IN THERE I WANT? COME ON, I'M ASKING!
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Date: 2018-04-10 11:53 am (UTC)[Sounds...probably legit? She still doesn't look quite certain, but that's more because she's not sure how to do this.]
You, um. You want help? I don't look like it, much, but I'm pretty strong.
[She doesn't look it. She looks small and waiflike, especially in that oversized sweater, and the bright red eyes and scars don't help much with the general impression.]
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Date: 2018-04-10 03:56 pm (UTC)Yes, he knows the kids would choose Stan. They're right to choose Stan. Doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.
It's true. He's got nothing except his family, and his family isn't here. He doesn't know when he's going to get back to them, because he's got to deal with an unbeatable monster he thought he'd already beaten. An echo of familiar despair sinks its claws into Ford's heart: having nothing but an impossible goal is a feeling he knows all too well. He knows where the old determination is, and he knows how to draw on it when it's the only resource he has. He knows how to harden his heart to everything else but the objective: stop Bill. Go home.
But this time he doesn't have to do it alone. There are people here that Ford thinks that maybe he can trust. The despair, tight as a tourniquet, loosens. He's not lost, and it's not hopeless. It's just going to take a little time.
When he speaks again, it's still angry, but it's not a retort, it's a qualifying question. Sure, he expects a "HA HA HA NO," but he's still asking.]
In all your trillions of years, have you ever really cared about anybody? Was there anyone, in any dimension, that actually mattered to you?!
[Answering a question with a question is both rude and nonsensical, but if the answer to this is "no," then no, there's nothing for Bill in Ford's mind, because he'll never understand, and that will be that. Go on, answer. Let's test that ring.]
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Date: 2018-04-10 04:45 pm (UTC)He remembers growing up running in circles around Soos, vidcalls with Dipper. (Redimere helped Jean adopt her son.) Taking a shuttle out of the Core to see Mabel's school play. But that's just the thing, isn't it? They're not Soos and Dipper and Mabel, they're Question Mark, Pine Tree, and Shooting Star. (Phoenix and Odd.) None of this ever really happened.]
IF I EVER THOUGHT I DID, I WAS WRONG.
[The ring glows.]
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Date: 2018-04-10 05:36 pm (UTC)Is that so?
...
...are you sure that thing's working right? It's not prone to malfunctioning, is it?
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Date: 2018-04-10 06:44 pm (UTC)YEAH. YOU THINK I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT, BUT WHAT IF I DO, HUH?
NOT ONCE HAS IT BEEN WORTH IT AT THE END! IT'S IN THE NATURE OF PEOPLE TO DISAPPOINT YOU! I DON'T WANT THEM OR NEED THEM AND THAT INCLUDES Y̡̘̬͍̺̻O̡̰̠͉̽̆Ǘ̺̬̏̽̀̂, PAL.
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Date: 2018-04-10 08:01 pm (UTC)That just made Ford about two hundred percent more willing to believe in its impartiality.]
What, don't you think you can say that with your magic ring on?
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Date: 2018-04-10 09:01 pm (UTC)ASK ME.
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Date: 2018-04-10 09:33 pm (UTC)[Because now he's curious. Bill took the ring off because he's hiding something about this, and it's like finding a tiny crack in a perfectly smooth rock face. Ford wants to take a chisel to it. Wedge it open. Find out what's inside. He really shouldn't be doing this: Luke had told him not to antagonize Bill, and basically everyone else has advised Ford to leave Bill alone, but he's...not really thinking about that, whoops. He's not perfect. The axolotl is still working on him.]
Go on. I'm listening.
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Date: 2018-04-10 10:03 pm (UTC)[Bill turns his arm in a huge, many-angled arc to point at the ring. Dark.]
AND I KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT! AND PEOPLE ARE NEVER WORTH IT.
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Date: 2018-04-11 01:56 pm (UTC)Now the other part.
[He crooks his fingers. Come on, out with it.]
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Date: 2018-04-11 04:38 pm (UTC)[ring verdict: very true. Get your game on, go play.
Mmm okay. He had to psych himself up so he believes this before he says it. It doesn't matter that he's been trying to replace Ford for a year, or that every time he can get someone to actually work on trying to play the game with him they leave. (Or they're bad at it.) And the version of Ford he misses is either dead or never existed. Lie until you're not lying any more.
The glee of bantering with Ford drains back away to the second dull, bitter expression Bill had at the beginning.]
I DON'T NEED ANYONE. ESPECIALLY YOU. JUST TAKE WHAT I GAVE BACK TO YOU AND GO HOME.
[True.]