Ugh, no, the last thing he wants is to introspect about Bill. Having a nice, calm dream of meditative ocean waves and deliberately thinking about nothing at all sounds much better. He's going to close his eyes, cross his legs, and float in the field of nothingness. Maybe he'll work on something. Sorting out his own emotions isn't important and never has been. He hates Bill; that's the obvious answer, and that is definitely all there is to it.

It doesn't matter that he hates this Bill less than the other one. Or that the Bills have differences that are significant. Or that he's attached his own future to Bill's fate of his own free will. None of those facts have any relevance and will be treated as such. Nope. Only ocean waves and weapon designs in this dreamscape.